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Wet Paint Radio
# for insomniac—
失重的心告白中


Wet Paint Radio# for insomniac──confessions words of a weightless mind is a painting project of 2021.

During the 2020 New York on pause policy, I did nothing but count days and listen to the radio all day long in my room. I always poked my head out of the window to see who'd get to the balcony to propose the warmest applause to all the frontline workers at 7 pm. I thought it'd make me feel normal to be surrounded by chatting voices and all. 

When I got back to my hometown, I was in the grip of nostalgia for the past days in NYC, how surreal. I then found a photo of a “wet paint” sign glued on the pillar at the subway platform in my photo album, and the sign stayed in my mind for no reason ever since. As nothing got better in 2021, this exact idea suddenly kicked in that all the wet paint signs imply one piece of information──"DO NOT TOUCH," I then started this painting project. I collected stories from people, like a radio DJ, and translated their written words into a painting. Touch it! Looking at the wounds, perhaps, you'd feel much better if you let it out, let the troublesome things out of your mind, really.

失重的心告白出來,說出來就會比較好一點了,路上的Wet paint標誌隱含的意思就是不要觸碰,所有失眠的夜裡,被藏得很深的故事們也許可以好好地面對並代謝掉。
我喜歡聽廣播,2020年因疫情而困在紐約某宿舍中的我,每天都在不同的電台頻道裡游走,因為聽著電台主持人的聲音,才讓我能感覺到還有其他人存在著。5月4號,房間裡只剩下兩個行李箱、一個後背包及一個手提袋的我,收到了第二次班機被取消的信息,於是我又抽出了筆與顏料,在房間裡完成了這幅畫:畫面裡面坐著一位不苟言笑但快要笑出來的電台DJ,他是支撐我度過那些時光的幻想朋友。隔一天,我前往了機場。

回來以後,突然會對曾在紐約的自己有股抽離感,於是在翻找相片想確認過去之時,看到一張對焦在月台柱子上張貼著“Wet paint”標誌的相片,“Wet Paint”,我突然頓悟它所隱含的意思其實是:「不要觸碰」。不要觸碰或不准碰觸就像我自己面對痛苦與的未知時會發生的防衛機制,但在經歷過先前那種恐懼無處安放或伸展的日子,我才知道了,一顆失重的心必需爬上山頂去放聲呼喊,為了不想再逃跑的自己,我在2021年初開始了以此為名的畫畫計劃──“Wet Paint Radio# for insomniac”。計劃進行之間,我就像DJ一樣,接收到很多素昧平生的陌生人的故事,有些文字很重,有些則是單純點歌,無論對方用什麼方式把發生過的捏塑成一段文字,都留下了很真實的形狀,於是乎,我接下那些文字,並將之翻譯成一幅畫。我想,在失眠的夜裡,自己無法面對的部分,如果能對上一個電台的頻率,也許,那些被藏得很深的故事們也許可以好好地碰觸並代謝掉,畢竟你的、或我的故事,都是我們存在過的痕跡。

2021年“Wet Paint Radio# for insomniac”通過FLiPER Publish的圖文扶植計畫,並以《失重的心告白中(Have I Found You)》為名出版成冊。

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